| never thought i'd miss a hand so much |
[09 Jun 2008|09:06pm] |
well, it finally happened. damnapple.fredfarm.com went under. i have been so disconnected for so long i didn't notice. but it still makes me really sad. occasionally, i'd go to my site and browse around and live off my feeling of accomplishment from way back when for about 5 min. now it's just an error page :,(.
sadly, this marks my latest entry in 91 weeks!! i don't know if anyone still randomly checks on me, but it's true i am still alive. i'm just about done with my 3rd year of med school. soon i will be applying for residency (in internal medicine) and moving on (or maybe staying in dc?). but as much as i have strayed from the fanart world, i always felt my site was my timid connection to it. now that it's gone, i guess i must accept the end of my fanart'ing days. i never quite wanted to admit it to myself, but oh well. it appears unavoidable.
thanks to everyone who visited me at 'the whole damn apple,' who viewed my work, downloaded my brushes, commented, inspired me, and befriended me in the community. i will always look back fondly on those years. and who knows, maybe i'll find my way back to lj more frequently now that i've taken that first step and posted again.
hope everyone is doing well out there!!
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| you certainly have a type |
[07 Sep 2006|05:57pm] |
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med school sure sucks the life out of you. i highly don't recommend it. that being said, i made a wallpaper like 3 months ago and never shared it, so i figured why not? hope everyone out there who may still be checking up on me is doing well. :)
lyrics from portastatic's "truckstop cassettes"
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| impulse buy'd! |
[14 Jul 2005|01:52am] |
i just bought this. for no real reason. except it looks pretty. and i like the idea of being able to carry it around. ah well. no more random electronics purchases for while.
heeeeee! HP in 2 days! it's crazy. i don't think i ever imagined being so excited about it. i even made an icon. and i finally listened to that harry and the potters song ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) spotsnstripes and toastandtea have been quoting. the umbridge one. it all makes sense now!
btw, wedding crashers is a really funny movie. i saw a screening of it last week. it was hilarious. i might have liked it so much because i really expected nothing from it. but still, it was great. funniest thing i've seen in awhile.
this and this have been stuck in my head all day long. i used to hate phil collins. what's happened to me?!
ok, i'm done with random useless posting.
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| new art? wtf! |
[11 Jul 2005|04:18pm] |
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yes, unemployment (i'm officially done with work!) has driven me to create! well, maybe. maybe the feeling that i have free time has pushed me to sit down with PS. i only just recently got everything back on my new HD. anyway, i've been wanting to do a matthew fox wp for awhile now. ever since i saw those sweet ass hi-res GQ pics. so pretty ... but i digress. random lyrics from doves' "almost forgot myself," the shins' "saint simon," jason mraz's "0% interest," and coldplay's "a message."
1024 | 800
haven't done this in (feel's like forever) awhile, so please let me know your thoughts. thanks for looking :)
ps: my cat snores.
pps: free slurpee day!
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| eeeek |
[21 Jun 2005|10:06am] |
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so my hard drive on my laptop is completely GONE. out of nowhere too. it just started making a rattling noise after the computer froze and it died. arg, so frustrating. i've had it less than a year too. dell is gonna send another, but i'm pissed about the stuff i lost. i'm pretty pissed about the programs i acquired that will have to be reacquired. but mostly i am pissed about my iTunes library.
i did not think at all to back that up. i have everything on my ipod, and i know i can transfer songs back to my hard drive from it with ml_ipod. but does anyone know the best way to transfer playlists from the ipod to pc? it doesn't work in ml_ipod. i tried that randomly before. i've seen some random programs on download.com that do ipod stuff, but i have no idea which will actually work. PLEASE HELP!! :)
anyway, aside from that fiasco, i have been doing ok. i actually found a place to live for the year!! I'M NOT HOMELESS! it's about 15 min from the med school. very nice house. it's got 4 other people in it. very quiet, pretty, green neighborhood. i am happy with that. there's another first year living there too, so that's good. i am relieved to have that worked out. now i must concentrate on relaxing and enjoying my precious freedom.
going to vegas in a week and a half!!
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| I'm IN! |
[16 Jun 2005|02:08pm] |
it's almost official. i'm going to med school in august! Georgetown just recently pulled me off the waitlist!
i had trouble believing it for a bit. i'd spent so much time accepting that i'd have to reapply. but i'm in! it's a relief, but i'm currently scared and excited all at the same time :)
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| coldplay |
[06 Jun 2005|07:00pm] |
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peopleareshapes's post the other day got me thinking about coldplay ... well, enough to post about it. ( babble about coldplay and x&y )
i was intent on making a coldplay icon, but i couldn't find any pictures i liked. so i made this matthew fox one. cuz i was directed to those nicely HQ scans of his GQ(?) shoot through one of toastandtea's entries. so yes.
alright, so as long as i'm posting, i'll do that 5 songs you like meme thing (some are in m4a format). gee ... i wonder what'll wind up on this ...
1. coldplay - a message (i really like this song. it's very subtle but it keeps getting stuck in my head)
2. coldplay - swallowed in the sea (something along those lines)
3. ryan adams - afraid not scared (i recently d/led a ton of ryan adams. so much better when he's not all country-sounding)
4. ryan adams - firecracker (ok, i just lied about the country-sounding thing, cuz i really like this song too ...)
... ummm :::thinks::: i have so much music that i d/led for no reason at all before i left school (and my nice hi-speed connection). i'm so lame.
5. bon jovi - livin' on a prayer (forgive me, i've been on an 80s/early 90s kick ... i have so many horrible 80s songs right now. so many.)
( fuck 5 songs ... here's 5 more )
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| i'm updating waaaay too much for me ... i need to stop |
[13 Jan 2005|07:00pm] |
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well, i fiiiiinally updated runtogether. and redesigned! it's actually pretty shameful cuz i did it over the summer and things happened and i just never got around to uploading all this shit (i know ... i'm so lame). but now i finally have. i thought i'd share :)
there's no real new art ... ok, i take that back. there's this new alias-y wp i never put up. but it's not exciting.
see?
alright, well, as long as i'm posting gratuitous images, i might as well throw in a few of my cats
( click for cuteness! )
anyway, yes. i've got that allll off my back now. alright, i'm done :)
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| fanart in RL! |
[12 Jan 2005|10:14pm] |
so i had my interview at md today. i was actually pretty nervous, but it wasn't scary. the people were really nice and helpful. i think it went alright. i dunno if they'll take me, but at least i didn't feel like i fucked up.
aaanyway, the fun thing was that my second interviewer asked me about my hobbies, and i started telling him about my fanart. i told him i had a website and he wanted to see. so i told him the address. i had to stand over his shoulder as he typed d-a-m-a-p-p-l-e- ... "no it's 'damn' as in ... goddamn ..." anyway, that was kinda embarrassing and i ended up typing the n in there for him myself. but he clicked on some of my stuff and said he was impressed. so, yeah, who knew this obsession would possibly influence my med school acceptance?
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| happy belated new year? |
[06 Jan 2005|09:23pm] |
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i think i'm getting a cold. it's really annoying. i was sooo proud of myself this semester too. because i didn't get a cold once. and last year i got a cold, followed by the flu, followed by an annoying stomach bug. that sucked a lot. but this year i was ok. until now. the worst part is i have an interview next wed. at maryland, and i'm starting to lose my voice. i can just imagine the horror that will be without a voice. ughughugh. (hehehe, i see hugh in there twice ... mmm ...)
anyway, i watched lost and alias yesterday with my aunt, uncle and cousins. it's so fun watching with a bunch of people who are all into it. but yeah, i'm trying to get more into lost. it's actually really good. one of my cousins hates it because there are too many people and it's confusing. but i kinda like that. i like all the different storylines. there's just so much to be revealed.
alias was good. i was actually pretty happy when it ended. it wasn't amazing, but i'm satisfied for now. i'm trying to be open-minded. i dunno how long the state of the s/v will keep me quiet. but for now, it'll suffice. no, i can definitely see myself having issues with it soon. but whatever. i don't have a whole lot to say at this point. for now, i'm glad it's better than last season.
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| happy holidays!! |
[24 Dec 2004|02:08am] |
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the semester is finally over! which gives me more time to play around in photoshop, of course. yay!
i think i just made it in time ... for christmas, at least. i blame the use of jude law on the fact that i just watched alfie ... which was a pretty bad movie. but it was nice to look at. :) i blame the use of madonna lyrics on the fact that i downloaded her greatest hits, vol. 1. so, yeah. happy holidays!!
um, so in the course of trying to put this together, i had the urge to make a wallpaper. it's pretty lame and simplistic. but i was pretty bored ... anyway, i know i'm a loser. which is probably supported even more by the lyrics ("overcome by happiness" by the pernice bros.) i used. i don't think they really make any sense, but they sort of look like they do. and besides, i couldn't resist stamping the words "pretty white ass" on there. anyway, i figured i'd post this thing for the hell of it ... since it's been awhile.
yes, not very imaginative, considering you just saw the holiday card ... but i did make this first ... aaanyway, yeah. ok, i'm out :)
ETA: happy belated bday spotsnstripes!!!
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| just a quick goodbye |
[25 Aug 2004|10:46pm] |
my life has been crazy of late, and tomorrow morning, bright and early, i'm starting out on a 15-hr drive back to st. louis. i really can't believe my summer is over and i have to go back to school. i'm excited and distressed at the same time.
i just wanna apologize now for being a bad replier and f-list checker. and i wanna apologize for being even worse from now on :(. maybe things will be better once i get settled. i honestly don't know. but i just wanna wave goodbye to everyone. :::waves::: i'll tty all soon i'm sure ... i hope :/
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| strangest monday ever |
[16 Aug 2004|09:01pm] |
so occasionally i go to the hospital to observe breast cancer surgeries with this surgeon who operated on my grandmother. i've seen at least 6 or 7 procedures so far. and some of them have been reeaaallly bloody. and it hasn't been a big deal. but today, i fainted. like really truly fainted. i've kinda fainted before but not like this and not under these circumstances. it was def. an experience.
so i'd been observing a bilateral masectomy for a good 2-3 hrs prior to my episode. this one was crazy bloody. like squirting all over the place and all over the equipment bloody. but i got through that and we moved on to a new case. this woman was a smoker and consequently they couldn't put her on a ventilator so they couldn't give her general anesthesia. they had to keep injecting local. and eventually they reached their limit and couldn't give anymore. so this woman was in pain and they were cutting this big hunk of tissue out of her. she kept reaching her hand up and trying to grasp at people and moaning and stuff. it was rough. and it got to me. i started to feel queasy so i sat down. but by then it was too late. i blacked out and fell out of the chair, smacking my head on the floor.
so they wake me up like 30 sec after and it was just the strangest feeling. like i didn't even remember passing out for one. but i also didn't expect to be there when i woke up. it was like a nightmare. you know like in those weird sci fi movies when the doctors are operating on you and you wake up in the middle ... like in the x-files or something. it was so creepy. there were just all these people in scrubs and masks standing over me, trying to wake me up. and i practically panicked and was like why am i here?! eventually i reoriented and realized one side of my forehead was throbbing (i have a big ol lump for a souvenir).
long story short, they hauled me off to the ER on a stretcher and i had a CAT scan. doctors and nurses kept coming in to my room to tell me their fainting stories while i was waiting. it was kinda funny. they were all very reassuring.
i'm just still slightly shook up about it. and it's strange that the blood and gore wasn't even what got to me. but i guess everyone has to faint at one point. or at least according to all the stories i heard. ah well, hopefully next time i'll make it through unscathed.
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| the obligatory HP post |
[03 Aug 2004|12:14am] |
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so today (because i'm a bitch and it's fun) my away message was: "justin finch-fletchley is my new boyfriend." my real boyfriend of course IMed with a "what the hell?" which was completely expected. but what was not expected was the follow-up "have you been watching harry potter?" i was a little impressed and really must give him props for that. surely a way to a girl's heart is through a fandom ... right?
anyway, as i am now about 400 pages in Order of the Phoenix, i thought i'd ramble a bit. i really should slow down because i expected this to keep me occupied on our road trip to the beach on saturday. but i can't stop reading it! it's so gooood! definitely darker in tone. and very frustrating. but entertaining all the same. i accidentally read a big spoiler (that was really very simple and didn't take too long to understand) a couple weeks ago. so i expect i won't be overwhelmed when certain events unfold.
i also have a confession to make ... and i know some people will hate me for this but ... i'm kinda rooting for cho ... ahhhh :::ducks::: it's not exactly what it seems. i still feel that harry and hermione are a otp/mfeo/etc. but i'm just frustrated and depressed on harry's behalf. and cho seems to be the only thing that kinda makes him forget his woes ... if only for a moment. so, really, i'm rooting for harry and his happiness. and while i know his and hermione's is a deeper, subconscious and cerebral love (one that surely is stronger and will last longer), cho is more of an immediate thing. and i just want the poor kid to feel the slightest bit of happiness. i'm a whore, i know. i'm all about the immediate gratification. but i said it. it's done. don't keel me!
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| name my kitty!! |
[31 Jul 2004|01:32pm] |
we just brought home a kitten yesterday. he's pretty cute. except for the fact that he's either schizophrenic or possessed. honestly, he's evil. i want to call him that. but i dunno how good an idea it is. the animal shelter named him "iron." but we aren't all that pleased with that name.
( sure, he looks cute and innocent but ... )
soooo ... anybody got any name ideas? friends have suggested "satan" and "inky." satan is a little much. inky doesn't quite capture the evilness and energy below the surface. i was thinking of a person's name. like something random but still ominous. like ... javier? i dunno. any suggestions you have would be great :)
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| gonna let it burn |
[22 Jul 2004|10:40pm] |
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ahh, i can't this song out of my head. but it's alright. i actually don't mind it. it speaks to me!
aanyway, i finally saw fahrenheit 9/11 the other day. and i didn't think it was possible to be more disenchanted with this administration and feel more betrayed. ( bitching about this country ... a couple random spoilers for the movie )
so i just saw that article by way of peopleareshapes about kirsten dunst dumping jake gyllenhaal because her super star film career takes too much of her time. ugh. i have to say now that i always hated her and thought she was ... less than attractive. and jake? you can come to me for comfort any time. in fact, i'd be more than willing to mend your broken heart out in CA if i go to med school there :) so, yes, in honor of all this, i have a new icon. aww, poor jake ... but look at the bright side buddy!
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| i am le back |
[12 Jul 2004|09:25pm] |
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yes, i left to go to orlando with my family for the 4th ... just as we do every. single. year. nothing much exciting happened. my boyfriend came with us. he was not pleased with the heat. i guess i don't blame him. it was mid-90s everyday. and sunny. i'd like to say i lost a lot of water weight ... but i think i gained that back in food :( aaanyway, i thought i'd join the crowd and post pics. like my trip, they are not exciting. i really didn't take many (at least not as many as last year). but here are a few i got:
( rest under the cut )
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| pretty in pink |
[25 Jun 2004|10:54pm] |
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new art. because vaughn is a cocksucker, but he's a pretty cocksucker ... damn him! lyrics from "heartbreakin' man" by my morning jacket. i so fell in love with this song when i heard it, and i was like fuck, i have to make something with it. so, it kinda works! like vaughn knows he's a cocksucker. and he's hurting for it. so, yes, with this piece, i am still effectively ignoring the finale. ummm, it's not in wallpaper format right now, but it totally can be (and prolly will be). yeah, i'll get that up at runtogether next time i update. (hopefully really soon ... :::crosses fingers:::)
ha, and i have a new icon as well ... so much with the new art! well, it was trendy to have a finale icon, so i made one. i guess that means i am acknowledging the finale. but i am still expressing my disdain for it. yes.
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| arg |
[23 Jun 2004|12:34pm] |
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i just wanna bitch about something for a sec ... so i went out over the weekend to get drinks twice. and was denied twice. ok, well, i didn't go specifically for drinks, but anyway ... so fucking retarded. so, in maryland, if you are under 18 when you get your license, they make you take a profile picture. and now all the restaurants are not serving to people with IDs with profile shots. i understand somewhat, but at the same time, you can't do that. your driver's license is your main form of ID. the gov't recognizes it. the police will recognize it. the fucking airlines recognize it. if they all can identify you with that picture, why the fuck can't i get some booze?! arg. my friend argued with the manager at copeland's for like 15 min about this. but it got nowhere. and the next night, the cheesecake factory wouldn't give me anything either. i know, there is a solution. my license expires on the 30th anyway, so i should get it renewed. but still! it's the principle of the thing! and ... it's much easier to bitch.
alright, well, that said, i'll prolly duck outta work for an hour or so and go get it renewed. since the stupid mva closes at 4:30.
totally random, but ... best song ever: my morning jacket - lowdown (click to listen yourself) solely because they say the words "love dawg can't you see." so great.
oh, yeah, new icon ... because mean girls was so hilarious. even if it was all teen-chick-flicky. and i don't remember who, but someone pointed out that one of lindsay lohan's nostrils is bigger than the other. so true. it's kinda weird. but it's ok. i'll forgive her. oh, yes, and thanks muchly to bliccy for the scan!
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| weirder things have happened |
[18 Jun 2004|02:40pm] |
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The Zephyrs - Obeyessekere (yessss, look eloise!) |
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today i've been getting strange looks and double takes from people. i probably wouldn't be a moron in supposing it's because of the t-shirt i'm wearing. this is what it says:
oh, it's great. (kind of a joke between me and my suitemate) i made the t-shirt online. that's what gets me. at cafepress.com. here's the link to the store. i got the ringer t-shirt. it's so cool. i think they do an iron-on sorta thing, but it really looks awesome. it doesn't hold up tremendously in the wash ... but i'm over it. anyway, it kinda makes me self-conscious. cuz i like to blend in and not upset people. or be stared at. but it's ok.
i also made a "jewish asian princess" t-shirt. for me and my friend. because we like to consider ourselves the only ones out there. but it was so random. some lady that i know not at all bought 2 of them! i was amazed.
also, completely random ... i'm so in love with sex and the city being on tbs. how awesome is that?
:::goes back to slacking off at work:::
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